Monday, May 31, 2010
Got up late today after a busy weekend. I finally got on top of 5 baskets of washing.Really struggling to organize the never ending cycle of washing, drying and putting away our clothes. Any ideas to keep ahead of the game would be great.
On to a more fun note..any Twighlight fans out there?? Well I unashamedly put my hand up to that question. What is the attraction of this vampire love story? In an interesting discussion with my boss today this question came up. He is perplexed at the popularity of the story, especially among females.For me it is the pure love story that most girls dream of.The intensity of this love is portrayed so beautifully in the Twiglight books.Who wouldn't want an Edward or Jacob proclaiming their love in such a way that really left me .....breathless.To be fair I am a die hard romantic.I totally and utterly devoured the Twighlight love triangle. I found it difficult to take a side...I am both Team Edward and Team Jacob simply because I love LOve:)
A couple of my girlfriends however tried to burst my rosy outlook on love."Come on Cindy you know that sort of love never really exists.?" They see it as a stereotypical/mythical kind of love.They think I love to live in fairytale land.
Well you are allowed to dream aren't you.What love is differs from person to person, I feel great love for my hubby especially when he does the simplest things for me.I am allowed to have my dream, it's not in any way harmful to myself or my loved ones.What are books/movies for if not to transport us to a place where dreams or hopes may come true. A bit of escapism never hurt any mum, especially when you've been up to your elbows in washing, homework,colds,sibling squabbles......
Back to reality, in preparation for my little girls 6th birthday I'm trying to decide on whether to make her cake or just buy one.What sort of lollies to put in her lolly bags for her classmates? Birthdays are such bitter sweet occasions now.On the one hand it is a joy to see their growth and independence developing but on the other hand my "baby" will never truly be my "baby" any more.I now find it difficult to look at all the baby photos of my children, it leaves such and ache in my heart knowing I will never have that time back, it is truly gone.I know I should be in the "now" and not look back with sadness , but instead be grateful for that time I shared with them. It's one of those roller coaster moments that I just have to ride through.
I am grateful for the time I spent with my babies, I feel very blessed to have experienced being a mother to four beautiful newborns.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Another week gone by in haze of footy,karate, swimming, homework, washing, meals,lunches...and so the ride continues. This time of year when I am well into the routine and chaos of family life I feel the Melbourne winter begin to pull me into a state of ...NOOOOO!!!
As you may have guessed not a fan of winter at all. The constant struggle of reminding the kids to keep their school jumpers on (and not to loose them!!) especially on the playground, then knowing they enter warm heated classrooms.Only a matter of time before the colds and flu rear their ugly heads.
The dreary view out of my window of a morning does nothing to bolster my enthusiasm for winter. My husband feels I should hibernate this time of year and you know what he's on to something. Let me rest and revive a pull me out when the buds begin to bloom.A girl can dream can't she...?.
Meanwhile as I attempt to find positives in winter a few of my girl friends are going through major changes and challenges themselves. It got me wondering how unpredictable life can be. My girlfriend M has recently found a buyer for her house but with a few issues that need to be resolved before sale can go ahead. She has spoken alot about the process of selling and buying a house. We are also in the process of getting ready to put our house of 14yrs up for sale..here we go again on that darn old roller coaster..better hold on!
My other friend J, has just found out her hubby lost his job.We spoke about how daunting it can be when children are involved. Before children you have less on your shoulders, especially financially.Having been a one income household for quite a while I understand the pressure and strain.I think J and her hubby will come out alright they have positive attitudes and a very loving relationship.
Change is constant...as the saying goes the only thing we can be sure of is death and taxes.
So it is with this in mind I prepare for my one and only baby girl to turn 6yrs old next week. Really where has the time gone..it seemed like just yesterday I resigned my self to the fact that I was to be the mother to three boys.I will never forget the ultrasound doctor saying yes, you have a girl.My fourth and final pregnancy ushered in the news I dared not even whisper...Yes Mrs Faundez you are having a girl.My long awaited, much anticipated baby girl was finally here.So next week I celebrate the dream I had many many years ago.She is my light and my love.Let the celebration begin...be gone foul winter!!!!!!
I am grateful for a beautiful daughter who brings sunshine to my life.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Another day on the rollercoaster. Driving home today I remembered where the analogy of life being a rollercoaster came from. Many years ago my then boyfriend(now husband) and I were watching a movie called Parenthood...Steve Martin, Diane Lane etc...It was Steve Martins character who saw his life as a rollercoaster . His wife in the movie stated she loved the feeling of being on a rollercoaster where as Steve felt he was strugggling to hold on for the ride.
I think I am alot like Steve Martins character, knowing that there will be highs and lows and just barely holding on. And if I thought that in my early years it was only reinforced threefold after I had children. With kids you just never know what is around the corner, and for a person who resists change I can honestly say that the ride definitely became more intense!
I would love to know if I am the only Mum,daughter, sister, wife & friend who views life in this way. I am open to finding ways to become more at peace with this rollercoaster.....i.e ways to enjoy the ride rather than resist or be constantly terrified. To the outside world I have it all together, but most of the time I'm hiding my terror behind my smile.
I am grateful for the home I live in and the people who make it a home.